Relationships: Growing Into the Remembering of Who You Are

One doesn’t know who they are intimately until they’ve been in relationship. Romantically or not. One doesn’t know who they are intimately until they’ve had a lot of time to BE with themselves.

Be the watcher. Step back and notice the emotions, the passing thoughts and the physiological sensations in your body.

Are you reactive to what is being spoken to you or can you be an active listener and listen to respond instead of listening to be right or to have an answer?

Are you recognizing patterns that have been learned through childhood that you’ve not been able to grow out of? Do you even realize that there is any such thing?

I have many types of relationships. My most difficult has been with Family and relationship to Self. With each triumph a shift occurs which changes my boundaries, perceptions and belief systems and thus eventually my most intimate relationships. My two marriages.

Both very different and not chosen blindly. I was very much in love, deeply... but both in different ways and for different reasons. I was a completely different person in my first marriage than I was going into my second marriage. Change is inevitable when one goes through deep grief, emotional strife or loss.

I continue to evolve into the person that I chose to find when I was born into this world. What I mean by that is this — we choose our parents and our experiences so that we can learn about contrast. Literally playing this game called LIFE. The kicker is the majority of us do not remember once we are born, though eventually we all find our way; if not in this lifetime, then the next.

One can never avoid learning something new and growing. Change is inevitable as I said before.

It’s been through my relationships that I’ve evolved the most. Early on I pushed away my intuition and honestly, I didn’t really recognize what that was.

My decisions made out of insecurity or living in lack created a desperation to understand who I was and why I behaved in certain ways. Being introspective has brought me closer to myself and opened me up to living mostly from my heart and avoiding getting caught up in my mind. My brain. My ego.

Recognizing all of the conditioned messages and belief systems that I had looping around in my brain, (we all do) was essential in becoming my own person.

Growth is a beautiful achievement. Grow into the remembering of WHO. YOU. ARE.

A spiritual being, here to make positive change and to BE LOVE.

It’s nice to be able to grow while being supported by your partner emotionally and hopefully they grow along with you, but sometimes that is a difficult responsibility for one to do. Especially when that means going against the grain or constant ridicule from close loved ones. Different dreams, aspirations and even their belief systems play a part.

I’ve learned a lot. Truth is... there is no right or wrong. No would have, could have or should haves. There is TODAY and in todays’ stillness and quiet is the TRUTH.

Personally, I have more to learn, and I feel very grateful that I have been able to commit myself to life and its evolution while I selflessly surrender to each new chapter.

Surrendering and doing my best to go with the flow with as little judgement of myself as possible and to always view what others deem as failures, as my triumphs instead. They’re all life lessons… lessons in life that have had a positive influence on me & living without barriers.